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I just need to dump my thoughts somewhere. But, know I intend no format.

We can make mistakes which means we have deviated from what we intended.

This is the same thing I think when I repeat on echo sort of back to good...

Back, huh?

What was good, and if I am not able to turn my latest mistake into something good then everything subsequent is wrong, too. But, part of me can remember although mentally it seemed perfect, was that even my word for it, or just an idea that I adopted and tried to achieve.

Ok, th I s is the hardest moment. Tight after you rubbed the lamp and the inevitable genie will surely grant your wish, what is it? You must have a wish or why summon the genie at all? But, what is it? Crud. I suppose it is a matter of soul searching still, I suppose I wish to know what I should wish for, for starters, but does that use up my wishing? Crud again. I ought to have been more prepared for this. I should have known exactly what I wanted or else time lets me alter it to fit my needs.

I wonder if wishes work like everything else, more success comes from using them for another anyway.

I know now. There never was a good better than now.

My wish is that you find peace and all that matters is me. Pretty selfish, though.

Yes, I want do not want to alter any one though, though it sounds exaftly as cyboric to clear a mind, but one time a friend wrote me the absolutely best art once about actually searching the baren wastelands of his soul to find sun sourched earth and dust, and a huge chasm, and he heard my name being called out. So, in a sense I gave purpose by filling a void.  Though, actually I did nothing. This was all his mind.

But, I know that I cannot run away from a problem, and there is no lesser problem only different and the problem only exists in my thoughts anyway, or does it?

This is something I need to try to understand, where am I? Am I a thought I or a body or a struggle or I really must entertain the thought that a body can actually hold more than one will so what do I mean by peace of mind, an agreement that cannot be forced. Hmmm it sounds like marriage.

Shakespeare comes out. "To the marraige of two minds..." but the heart is not a mind at all.

Ok, I need sleep. That isn't my great wish either, though.

I wish you actually loved me, and cared enough to overcome that obstacle. But, I do not want to bend you to me, I want you to come by your own choice. I wish for you, more than anythin, be content...with me. That seems like it would make me happy.

I think Jesus loved his Heavenly Father enough to be able to accept a terrible sacrifice.

Great. Now, my thoughts are being sabatoged and forgotten and replaced by this: https://youtu.be/xz32I_GbpeU