daily thought

One idea lead to another and I ended up learning about Yoik singing and now and going to see how it relates to some Irish traditional singing I love. I think the "people of the sun" on Frozen 2 are modeled after the Sami and when they start forming a circle and singing, It is the most powerful thing I had ever felt/heard.

https://youtu.be/MaW0i8XY77w?feature=shared

I think it is a Joik or a very good recreation of one.

Really, it makes me pause and think once again about how important a simple melody is in any musical piece.

daily thought

There will always be someone better than you and always be someone worse than  you if you look for them. It is better to strive to be one the best you. It is so hard for me to even know who I was, am or ought to be, but I heard a discussion where someone explained success as being the ability to push through hard things, not avoid them. I think it is easier for most of us to compare ourselves to those we see instead of with what we must work hard to even comprehend.

just seems...

It just seems to me that people knew about things before they were "discovered" and given a name. Things like Gravity, evolution and such. Like how languages evolve. It is a ture principle, but it falls apart when you try to use it to explain humankind.

morning thought

Fasting is not trust worthy. It is ultimately another fad. One scientifically sound, but, as in finding truth, it is better not to seek in with scientists. Not saying science is false or won't even be eventually the same as is revealed by God, but when it comes to my health. Ultimately, I need to focus on gut feelings. Since Childhood I have had this metaphor in my head of a great fire that must be maintained. If it dwindles adding logs will not help it burn, and though they may burn stronger, brighter, hotter and longer, kindling and kinder are needed. I fasted and fasted and never saw any of the mentioned benefits, not to say that they are not there, but fat is like a log, and I need to stoke the fire (metabolism) before it works. Many get impatient and just add starter fluid, but that is nothing I have nor care to use. Also, so you burn off all of the fat, ok. You still need to start a burn to keep burning. I like how I feel on food. If anything, I have found success in regular exercise and nutrition. 

Here, I will get a bit "Mormony". There was a talk by Jeffery R. Holland about sometimes taking the wrong road to be certain of the right road. 

https://youtu.be/yNQC-_srxH8?si=d1abYHUfjNoEzqyw

I spent a lot of time invested in fasting only to know surely (not giving in to emperor's new clothes thing) that I happened to get in great shape at the time I was trying out IF. It may be just what is needed for some people, but after 4 days of fasting I realized none of the things I ought to have experienced happened, so by extrapolation I figure none of it's truths are actually truths. Now,  it could be that my body type just takes a bit longer, but I was soooooo tired, not hungry,  mind you, that even if it did work, so what.... whereas, when I exercised after each meal I lost weight and felt stronger to the point that I wondered if I was super human or something.  My conclusion is that I must have a runner's body. Several people in my family have made comments as well about how I had real potetial as a world class athlete and it was sad that I was hospitalized, but my thought is that maybe it was like those blinders the put on horses to help them not get distracted, and I was using my talents to choose other pursuits, also, it is like Beethoven, how having a set back only makes a drive to succeed all the stronger, and true talent blossoms under stress.

Bottom line, is that 60% is not a strong enough statistic or probably of a desired result to base a choice on whereas how I actually feel is.

journal to rid thoughts in preparation for sleep

I do not want to loose weight! I want to loose fat. Too often, various diet plans and exercise routines are focused on loosing weight. It really irks me.  The same thing happened whenever I want getting dentures, I honestly did not care what I looked like I wanted to be pain free. My pain was so intense! When it was gone I felt so much relief and happiness! And it so happened that cosmetically my appearance was improved, but I swear that was never my goal. It reminds me of that scripture in Jacob 2 that says something like seek ye first the kingdom of God and riches will be given you. I see that playing out in real life with my brother Matthew. So, as I close the day that is on my mind, "I want to loose fat." But you can't lose fat cells or gain them you can merely increase or decrease them in size. All of the experts claimed that if I merely did not eat then I would burn fat for fuel. I honestly did not see that happen so I do not know if anything they said is true. I decided that I needed to consult the manufacturer on what I must do and my prayer was answered that it is a blessing to have a body that can run and not be weary. Fast and not starve, etc. But. How do I lose fat? I become a distance runner. I really am afraid of doing that, but that was my answer and that I would never feel w3content until I do that.plus, it was what I was born to do. I think I actually decided that in the pre existence,  and that is what ailed understood and was okay with before I got hospitalized, and reforgotor just dropped that worry thinking we'll, I couldn't run anyway. But, like upon line, now I realize that we are purposely given obstacles to overcome yo make us strong enough to accomplish what we need to, like a bird needing to hatch out of it's shell without help. I had been thinking, too that Nick would probably be a great runner, too

 Though, he wouldn't want to do that, I really think he would be an amazing athlete.