Sitting at my desk this morning

"Furthermore, in speaking of its effects, the Apostle [Paul] says: “The spirit is given to every man to profit withal. To one is given faith.” [See 1 Corinthians 12:7, 9.] Not a common, ordinary faith, which some people pretend to at the present day; but a faith which enabled its possessors to be sawn asunder, to be cast into dens of lions, fiery furnaces, and to undergo tortures of every description. This was the kind of faith that the Holy Ghost conferred upon those who possessed it, enabling its possessor to stand in the midst of every difficulty, defy every opposition and lay down his life, if necessary, for the cause that he had espoused."-from the Teachings of Lorenzo Snow Chp.4

To whom it may concern,

Though, I would never challenge you regarding difficulties, or dare to do so to anyone, suffice it, mine have been particularly rough. But, I am in a sense glad for them. Do not mistake me for a masochist though. But, like everyone else, I delight in having the opportunity to overcome. I even slapped the label of problem solver on my living resume. It is really through such distance and resistance that my mind firms in it's resolve.

I actually feel closer to you right now because of impossibility. Let me expound, I turned to things that, remind me of how it would feel to be with you because everything around me is so seemingly terrible. I have at my lowest point decided that the only way to endure anything is with love, and that means doting on you in any way I can.